H (karatefeelings) wrote,

i'm still alive

[reposted from my other journal]

20-Year-Old Model Daul Kim Is Dead

Wow. So basically one of my favourite models and favourite people has just died. I'm still shocked and trying to process this. I frequent a lot of random blogs and her's is one of them, I read her blog like almost everyday coz I can relate to it alot and she's hilarious and she has very cool weird interests. I love the way she writes. It's kinda broken and disconnected yet it makes perfect sense and then you get this random posts where she reveals what a depressive and perverted person she is among her other loud and opinionated entries and I love that too. I think what I relate to the most are her entries about loneliness and it's like I get these moments of great depression too but there's nothing I can do about it but go on with life and put a smile on my face and pretend things are cool and then I forget that I'm depressed and then like the weather in Singapore, my mood changes and I am sad again. I guess what's inspiring is how I know how she feels and yet she can still do so much in life so when news of her death broke and how rumours are going around that it's a possible suicide, I was shocked and disappointed. It feels so freaking random that wow, life can really be random and unexpected and like you really don't know what goes on in someone else's head. And it's like, if this could happen to her, it could happen to me too? You could be fine but then, no one is free from feeling completely hopeless, and helpless and completely alone and I pray for myself and the people I care about that we'll never crumble under all that emotion up to the point where nothing in this world could lessen that burden.

Daul Kim, you will be missed. T_T

Also, this Tuesday marks the end of my 1st semester of my last year in school. I have an exam for my Forensic Science module and also a presentation on my final year project(FYP) on the same day and this news basically distracted me from doing any form of studying. Prft.

Oh and, hi everyone. I know it feels like I've disappeared from the face of the Earth in this journal but I'm gona start updating and checking out the friends list more often once this semester ends. I apologize for the depressing entries. Hah. Till then, goodbye.
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